First blood

lol. i never thought i gonna start blogging since its like sharing my privacy to everyone, but everyone love to try new thing, so fuck it. anyway i gonna tell some summary of my current life, well im 20 but still in studying in foundation of computer science (hopefully this will be the last semester before i enter to degree). probably some of you wonder why im that suck rite? hurm actually im not that suck. its just one of bad patches in my life. but weird, what happen for past 1 year totally changed me. when i first enter college, i was a...jerk? i dont know what should i name it. in the past, i dont like when someone around me achieve something better than me. even my friends, when they do great in certain thing, i cheer them up and smile, but deep inside i can feel jealousy and hatred. i can hear voices in my head "nobody can rise above me! im the only number 1!". but after get good result in 1st sem i start to lose focus on my study. everything start to crash apart. and now im at the bottom, all my friends passed their foundation already. lots of hard time i experienced in the past 1 year after sinking at the bottom. but hey, i met spongebob and patrick at the bottom. and they tought me the real meaning of life. now im different person from the past. i will start from scratch and slowly swim to the top back. no matter what obstacle awaits me, i will give my best to pass it. and when im at the top, i will give my hand to anyone that drowning and sinking to the bottom. because i know being at the bottom feel sucks. so i will share my boat with everyone and help each other to achieve the best.